I am exhausted recently. I've been taking my vitamins and getting a full eight hours of sleep every night and taking time in the car to breathe and pray, but still, I'm exhausted. It's not the burnt out exhausted, though, it's the spiritual ebb and flow that's making my limbs feel heavy and my eyelids too.

Someone asked me tonight "How are you?" and the truth was easy, it came easy and it was true: I'm Good. I am full of joy, contentment, brimming with vision, excited to be finding community everywhere I look (even if the quota of close friends isn't on the rise), I'm good. If these things throw me into the gamut of goodness, then it is good through and through.

A few years ago, before I was about to embark on an extended international adventure a friend prayed these words over me, and I've never forgotten: He is your source, but you've got to walk to the source, you've got to draw from the source, you have to choose to drink from the source. When you can't find Him, when you can't see Him, when you don't want to choose Him, He's still your source.

I'm remembering that a lot recently, because to be honest, the only reason I'm good these days is because He's good eternally.

I read these words tonight, standing in worship:

I have set the LORD continually before me;
Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
Therefore my heart is glad and my glory rejoices;
My flesh also will dwell securely.
Psalm 16.8,9

I dwell most securely when I set Him most continually before me. On purpose.