There's been a song on repeat in our office and ipods for a few days. I think we both nearly had breakdowns this past week, paperwork piling, phone calls dreading, and meetings galore. I sat one morning and let tears falls down my face, confessing that I'm finding this hard. I couldn't communicate what exactly this was, but I knew it was hard. I knew it wasn't the workload, or the inflection filled questions from people, the changing leaves outside ushering in cold and winter, the upcoming weekend, or anything really, that I could identify. It was just this. THIS.

So the song. It's not much really. Just a lot of the chorus over and over again. And for the first few days we listened to it, I kept thinking, I'm just so glad I'm saved. I'm just so glad that I know Jesus. I'm just so glad that I'm not lost and that I have a hope and salvation.

But today I listened to it. Really listened to it.

It's about after. After salvation, after being lost and found, after death, and after resurrection; it's about after this. It's about heaven.

My soul is tired and hungry. My spirit is finding though.

The glory of it all
is that He came here
for the rescue of us all
that we may live
for the glory of it all

And maybe it's simple, but maybe simplicity is what we need most when heaven gets lost in the shuffle of life. And maybe repetition is for those who didn't get it the first time, but maybe repetition is the best way to remind us that this isn't the end. This isn't all there is.

So today in church, surrounded by the people I love most in the world, surrounded by the people who show me Jesus in every way every day, surrounded by worship, surrounded by people who get overwhelmed with all of this too--my heart wanted heaven more than anything else in the world.

My heart wanted heaven more than anything that this world could offer, take away, lend, or show me.

After night
comes a light
Dawn is here
Dawn is here
It's a new day
It's a new day
Everything will change
Things will never be the same

We will never be the same
We will never be the same
We will never be the same