Thursday, February 16

Empty. Apartment. Quiet. All quiet. Excepting the airplace flying overhead, the swallows in the tree outside my window, and the unobtrusive sound of the refrigerator. All quiet.

I thrive. I energize. I figure through my head the thoughts which have been waiting to be thought, wonderings which have been wondering when they, too, could be wondered.

Now is a good time, I say to my reflection in the mirror as I wash my hands. Now is a quiet time.

Now is a time I can think about Amy Lowell and her poem about the Madonna and a garden, about Luigi Pirandello and his six infamous characters searching for an author. Now is a time I could process more thoroughly what it means to live in the Land of the Living. Now is a time when I could rework my budget, figuring which things must be cut out, figuring which things must be counted in. Now is a time I could just sit and close my eyes; it's only eight-thirty, after all, and hardly time for bed. Now is a time when I could search for more internships, fill out endless applications, all the while praying that the two I really want will want me just as badly. Now is a time I could process the new events of Valentine's week: five good friends, all in my immediate circle, suddenly find themselves with Valentines of their own and so, once again, I find myself on the outside of that immediate circle and back to just God and me. Now is a time I could call home and talk to people (if only I weren't out of cell phone minutes again). Now is a time I could open the Bible that is only read for twenty minutes in the peak morning through eyes still blurry from too little sleep and too much reading.


I decide against them all and decide that, save for the five minutes it took to write this, now is the time to complement the quiet. Two quiets sitting side by side on a porch swing, drinking iced tea, and staring at our toes.

Perfect.

6 comments:

Darlene Sinclair said...

Thank you for your thoughts and comment. Indeed, I am doing pretty well apart from dreading the season of immobility; not because I want to go so many places (I am actually glad to have to stay home) but because doing the necessary chores is so difficult (showers, brushing teeth, and getting dressed, not to mention using the bathroom!)
But this, too, shall pass...
Love you and am so glad to hear that you will be home for the break! Hooray!! Be sure to have a cup of tea with me, okay?

anon said...

yay! you're coming home. (you already know that)

:)

Lore said...

I'm pretty sure, Ben, that the purpose of saying you're anonymous is so that you really are anonymous--leaving a link to your site defeats that purpose utterly.

but you already knew that. In fact, you did it on purpose; which is why on your little personality thing on your website i picked 'clever'.

yes. I am coming home. I did already know that. But isn't it fun to talk about it anyway? =)

Peter said...

Hey-low Lore.

I'm more excited than Ben Is... But thats beside the point.

My mother wants to know your phone number.


Love you Lore.


Pete

Lore said...

tell yo mama she can call me at 315.244.2861 after nine or on the weekends or at 423.614.6044 during the day.

yes, yes, i know, to all those who keep asking why i keep running out of cell phone minutes two weeks into my bill; i have to change my cell phone plan but i'm waiting for manna from heaven before i can do that =)

kelley said...

Oh my! Oh heavens! Oh glory!

Lore was my first comment!

You're one of the few and the privileged who know. Yaaaaaay. Yet another way to keep in touch with my just-across-alumni-park-and-11th-street-friend!

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