mercy

Sheldon Van Auken, in one of my favorite books A Severe Mercy, says of a conversation he had with C.S. Lewis,

"One night at Magdelen we talked. . . about that something we're longing for, whether it be an island in the west or the other side of a mountain or perhaps a schooner yacht, long for it in the belief that it will mean joy, which it never fully does, because what we're really longing for is God."

So I am once again reminded that what I'm really longing for is God. It's not to have my a validation of my personality, to have noticeable gifts, or a secure future. Whether I live long and prosper or die young a pauper matters little. As long as I realize that my insufficiencies are opportunities for His glory to be manifested and His power to be shown at work in my life, my longings are complete.